Joy in Mourning
In my times of bitter grief I’ve often questioned why they called Gods plan “The Plan of Happiness” because my personal experience is that it is infinitely more painful and miserable than happy— but what I’m learning
Alone with One
…The swing where Kalea should have been. The emptiness was too much for me. The grief came rushing back. What if her baby spirit was right there watching us push Payson? What if she was sitting in right there in that little swing? What if she was hoping and waiting for me to push her? Irrational as it was I walked over and started pushing the empty baby swing (sometimes grief is irrational)…
Hallelujah, nevertheless.
At first, I had so much grace in accepting both Payson's epilepsy and Kalea's death. Now as time moves on-- I've started looking around and wondering why I've been hit SO HARD…
7 Songs I've Had on Repeat Through My Loss
I started listening to Christian music on my mission several years ago. I thought when I came home I'd go back to listening to my old music... but I never did. I couldn't…